Today I had a bit of a Christmas meltdown.
I’m not exactly sure what it is or why, but this year I’m not quite in the Christmas spirit as I have been in years past.
Sure, we went to the Holiday Parade, and had a great time, and put up our tree and I’m loving the coziness of the twinkly lights ~ always one of my favorite parts of the season. But the joy, the experience I’ve had in the past of thriving during the holiday season, I’m just not feeling it. I feel a little bit like a grinch! But, so be it ~ this is where I’m at.
I have a few theories. This year, Terry and I have been thinking quite a bit about the traditions of Christmas, and all of the “extras” that come with Christmas, and where those things came from. We’ve been spending time talking about whether we want certain aspects of Christmas ~ like Santa, for instance ~ to be a part of our lives. And on my own, I’ve been questioning the relevance of the hustle and bustle of this time of year.
I also have been more connected to the online world this year, through blogging and Pinterest in particular, and I realized that I was getting caught up in the hype of what I’m calling Christmas Perfection. This time of year, it seems that each blog post has a more festive recipe than the last, each home is more decked out than the previous, and everyone has time to do everything. With a smile to boot!
I think that my mind has been processing these thoughts for the past week or so at least, and today it all really came to a head. I realized, I don’t want a Christmas that is done out of necessity and simply keeping with empty tradition. I don’t want a Christmas that is so filled with baking, crafting, decorating, and socializing that I feel pressured to achieve perfection. I don’t want a Christmas that makes me sad, and today I was most definitely sad.
What I do want is this: a Christmas that is centered around Jesus rather than busyness. A Christmas in which I bake and cook for joy, and if things do not come out perfectly, or I don’t check every item off my list, it will be okay. A Christmas in which if my house isn’t utter perfection, it will be okay. And most definitely, a Christmas in which I don’t check out mentally because of some self-induced pressure!
I plan to spend my time between now and Christmas focusing on these things, and this:
Hopefully in this way, I will find true Christmas Perfection!